Rex took me for a midnight stroll last Monday night. Hand in hand we talked about our day and all the little things just to keep each other updated. Rex brought up how his mom was telling everyone that he had a girlfriend down at EAC. I just laughed it off not really thinking about it, but it lead into a serious discussion. Rex started to remind me of the night we put ourselves on the same page and how we decided to take it slow. Rex was completely honest when he said he did that for me at an attempt to keep me from feeling rushed or pressured. Haha. Rex gave me the power! Rex told me how he didn't want to date anyone else and that he wanted to grow in our relationship by going to the next step. Rex wanted to date me. Rex wanted me to be his girlfriend. Rex had that desire. Desire, that burning feeling that draws two people together. I couldn't deny my heart. I had that desire to date Rex and only Rex. The only problem was that I had just spoken with my mother about her wanting me to date other guys. I informed Rex of this and could see him backing off...this was only because I wasn't being very clear. That is what my mom wanted me to do. I, on the other hand, wanted nothing more than to be Rex's girlfriend. I care about Rex and for him to want to date me...it is just a beautiful thing.
We then talked about past relationships and what we learned from them personally. We told each other our first kiss stories. Rex asked permission to kiss a girl, while I just kissed the guy so he would take me home. Two different experiences, but it still brought us together merely through sharing. Oh and bytheway throughout this entire night Rex and I would just kiss. Kissing is what people that like each other and just decided to date do. No big deal. Hugging Rex under the clock tower as I felt his lips on mine is a moment I will treasure forever. We are just starting out and it is so much fun just to play around...having fun in the process. Not taking life to seriously...ya know. Then we dived deep into the onion. Rex told me about Miranda. They were in love and for some reason time was against them. Rex got a terrible sick feeling in the temple and well that's never a good sign. Long story short, Miranda taught Rex that he needs time and also to abide by what the Lord wants, not what Rex wanted. This lead to me disclosing my bad experience with dating Stuke. Stuke would drink, party, and cheat on me. When we were together he would put on a facade and I would believe the lie he had created. Stuke didn't respect me and would always try to get past my strict standards, but would fail in his attempt. Stuke was a mistake and he was not a man of God. I think Rex understood that I was in a low point in my life and how embarrassed I was of how long I let my relationship with Stuke continue. Rex and I were emotionally drained that night and I needed time to think. Yes, Rex and I were official now. But for some reason I had to process all these intense information. I came to the conclusion that Rex needs time, just like I need trust. I trust Rex. I trust Rex with my heart and soul. I trust Rex completely and that is weird for me. Ever since my bad experiences with Austin and Stuke my trust in men is extremely low. I don't have a problem with trusting Rex and that is such a relief as well as lift off of my shoulders. I need someone I can trust. Rex agreed with me and was happy that I pondered so intently last night's discussion. Rex turned to me wanting to say something important, I could just tell. He had his serious face on. He said, "Taylor, I want you to be more than my girlfriend...I want you to be my best friend." There have never been more perfect words formed by any man in existence. Literally the most romantic thing a guy has ever said to me, ever. My heart melted, my stomach had butterflies, and my only response was a quick kiss before I told him that I wanted him to be my best friend too.
Rex and I are dating. We are becoming each other's best friend: a person to turn to, shoulder to cry on, person to edit papers. Rex and I are immersed in college life yes, but we are doing it together. Not having to face each day alone, knowing he will be at my side is the most comforting thing ever. We have the desire to date, we have trust in our relationship, and we are loving the time we are spending just to be the other's best friend. Rex and I are standing at our beginning. I, for one, could not be happier because I am standing at the beginning with him.
We talked for an hour outside my apartment about all the important things. We would soak in each other hug after hug. Interruption after interruption we would always find each other again. We would play around and hide from the other behind the pillar. We did trust falls just to show our dedication to one another. We would talk of fun past memories and just laugh at ourselves. I am so happy we are both so goofy. I showed him the poppy thing I can do with my back and we would talk about missed signals at church. How we thought so differently about what the other was doing. Apparently, Rex was trying to hold my hand and I thought he was just being a brick wall not wanting to...so I didn't. But it turns out he did! Haha. He said goodnight in Spanish...Buenas Noches...he made me guess what it meant and eventually I put two and two together realizing he was saying goodnight. Rex looked at me like he never done before, he slowly backed me up pressing me against my door all the while maintaining contact with me. His gaze was so intense and trusting. The look on his face was one of wanting, waiting, and accepting. He stared into my eyes waited for my gaze then slowly lifted my chin with both of his gentle hands and kissed me on the lips. He leaned in more and more still ever so gently he would pull away. He came right back in. The touch of his lips against mine was tender and loving. We both just soaked it all in, completely savoring the moment of our very first kiss. I love firsts. Rex has introduced me to many firsts and I cannot wait for the firsts ahead. The first time he calls me babe. The first time he calls me his girlfriend. The first time he takes me to his home. The first time we exchange the words...I love you. Tonight was the best first kiss of my life. It was all about anticipation and accepting one another. Leaning into one another, closing my eyes, and feeling his lips press on mine was the absolute best moment of my life. A first kiss is a stepping stone. My first kiss with Rex was just a beautiful thing.
You know those days where you don't want them to end, this was one of those days for me. Rex along with his close friends took us on an all day and all night date to the wonderful little town of Duncan, Arizona. We went to the Duncan Fair. Watching the Mud Races was a blast because we were all on the stands sitting while we guessed which trucks would win. Rex got a text and did a little freak out dance...still don't know what that was about all I know is that it was absolutely adorable! The music would play the songs over and over again as if they only had a selection of songs and were hoping we wouldn't notice. Haha. Going to the different Art Exhibits and looking at the many selections of varied art gave me the chance to just relax. Then the blessed Doterra Oils...hmmm! How I love them! These ladies gave Rex and myself a conjure of orange with lavender oil informing us to breath in through our nose and breathe out our mouths as we slowly pulled our hands away. Can I just say those oils totally just cleared my nose right up! The smell was so fragrantly strong that it made us both laugh at ourselves as we did this again and again...every time the smell slowly decreasing. The ladies prodded us to get this male female mix to try out. The same oil would smell differently depending on if you were a boy or girl. Rex and I were more than eager! We rubbed it onto our necks then the ladies told us to smell each other...haha! Rex turned to me and just busted into laughter! We exchanged a look then came to our necks breathing in the essential oils. Boy did Rex smell good! I got a nice, big whiff of him! Can I just say how awkward it was to neck in order to smell each other in front of three old ladies...very! We got in the car sharing our seat belt heading now to the cotton seed. Playing in the cotton seed is such an adrenaline rush and is fun to just let go allowing yourself to be spontaneous. Jumping off the cotton seed I would flip off like I had seen Rex do many times before, the first time went great, but I completely biffed it the second time around. I flipped too hard causing my body to flip twice forcing my mouth slam into my knee as I rolled uncontrollably unto the hard cement. Let's just say I have bruises to show for it and had a fat lip for about an hour. Just another one of my grand mess ups in front of none other than Rex. Of course he was concerned and adorable as he helped me, but come on still embarrassing! Finding ourselves at the dairy we all smelt the beautiful fresh cow milk and poured the group a gallon to share. Rex was so helpful as he got the spout ready and poured everyone a cup of perfectly chilled, yummy milk. If you didn't already know I am a milkaholic. I avidly drink milk on a daily basis and to have the opportunity to make a friendship toast with milk is more or less a perfect moment for me :) Thinking back to Oakley we head over to the Duncan Rodeo to watch barrel racing and bull riding. Such an exciting experience to see others work hard to grip onto a ferocious bull. Finally we made our way to the dance and being in Rex's arms is all I ever need to be happy. I love to dance with Rex because he is goofy, tall, and has some great moves! Dancing to all the different country styles of music we are constantly on our feet just trying to follow Travis's hilarious father. Of course we were making fools of ourselves, but we did it together and that is all that matters. There is something about Rex that just draws me in...he captivates my attention always making me forget what I wanted to say because he is that amazing! The all-famous fair rides lived up to the lifelong tradition of making me sick to my stomach, but for the first time I had company! Rex got sick too! Haha. We just sat and talked about past relationships as our friends went on the Zipper. We thought we'd be brave and ride the Ferris Wheel, but that just made us more sick. The ride home Rex drove and he'd have to answer one of my questions to get a fruit snack. I asked him random questions wanting to get to know him even better as we helped time pass by faster. Returning home to the apartment he hugs me goodnight as we both agree all we need is to sleep our sickness off. My Duncan experience was a wonderful day filled with one terrific man and friends that are close to my heart! This date was one of our best yet!
Date night with Rex. We got a group of close friends together and went to Duck Ponds. The date was supposed to be a surprise, but Bryce ruined it for me by guessing what we would be doing with bread. The missionaries came over that night for dinner. Rex and Rylan were talking about how much bread he had and Bryce asked if we were going to the Duck Ponds to fed ducks...Rex was very upset. Haha. In a cute way though...it was more like really you just ruined the surprise! Haha Bryce was on the money though because that is just what we did and let me tell you it was such a fun night. The car ride was hilarious because Rex made a dilemma about one couple having to be split up in a six person car. He wanted to sit by me that much! I wouldn't of never even realized that taking Travis's car would cause such a problem. Thankfully we have amazing friends and throughout the night we would alternate not sitting by our dates. I just think its cute Rex was so concerned! Arriving at the Duck Ponds was a blast! There literally was a fork in the road and Rex would pretend to almost hit it. Picture this: night time, moon reflecting off the pond, and ducks swimming gracefully below your feet. Romantic right? Very! We all scrambled and gathering bread to fed to the ducks. We get handfuls of bread, crumble it in our hands, and toss it out to the ducks. I was in love with that moment. Sitting there, together, surrounded by friends in a beautiful moment we all can look back on and smile. Plus throwing a piece of bread directly at a duck's head is fun! Baylee and Rylan along with Travis and Kyla casually ditch us so that we can have a moment. Yea, no that didn't happen. We then resulted to tossing bread over the bridge to the ducks in the water below. Rex would pretend try to throw me in! Too much fun! Rex caught one and came running to me so I could pet it. You can see the picture above...we are just adorable! I then attempt to catch my own duck and I epically fail. I would run up and down the pond with no luck. Rylan suggested I quack like a duck...yea...I can't quack. Skipping, running, and dancing all of us ended up at the lighted playground! We would play tag and run after each other just letting go and having fun. I would fall and laugh while Rex would be jumping on everything. Rylan and Rex would make everything a competition. Baylee and I would just watch them laughing at how silly they were being. There was this green climb up on thing and Rex said no one can see inside it. We climb to the top and drop down to the bottom into each other's arms just happy to have the embrace. Rex is warm and I love being hugged by him. He is so strong and I feel safe in his arms. Coming together we talk about each other. Haha. Baylee and Rylan subtlety start singing 'We are Men' from Mulan trying to get Rex to kiss me. Rex was completely unaware and didn't make the connection while I was dying laughing. We went to McDonalds and got ice cream. YUM! Rex would put cold ice cubes down the back of my shirt. Cold! Haha but it was cute, flirty fun. Coming back to my apartment we watched, "Ever After" and can I just say that I love that movie even more now. Rex is just so cuddly and we were just cute holding hands. My new favorite thing is when Rex gets his face close to mine and nuzzle my face with his...awww love it! My favorite line is, "what a clumsy thief I turned out to be!" hahaha. Travis and Kyla go home leaving me lying on Rex's chest. I just smell him in and savor the moment of being near him. I make small talk, but the entire time his heart is just pounding out of his chest. I knew, I knew we weren't ready to kiss. We agreed on taking things slow and I want our first kiss to be perfect so I called him on it by reminding him of what we had talked about. Rex goes back to being Rex and makes fun of himself by going ba-bump, ba-bump, ba-bump (like a loud heart beat)! Hugging him and seeing him go isn't anything like a goodbye it is merely saying until tomorrow.
Thinking back to the first moment I saw Rex more than just a funny attractive guy was my first Sunday at my new YSA ward. Rex would jump up and be bishop's right hand man
explaining things and telling everyone how things were. He explained the difference between gospel doctrine and gospel principals. Rex always was willing to give service and volunteered to pass the sacrament that day. Very
impressive. After sacrament I went into the institute library to get set apart for my new calling. I was just looking at books in the fiction section when I look up and Rex is standing up asking if anyone was sitting next to me. I said go ahead and he smiled while he sat down. He just has one of those faces that draw your attention. I went back to looking at a book I was interested in when he started asking me questions. I told him I was from Idaho and he was like do you know where Kusco was? Obviously I have never heard of Kusco, Idaho and gave him a weird look. He resorted to making the connection to the movie emperor's new grove and I kept thinking...who is this guy. Bishop came and took us girls away. I got up to leave and Rex was trying to convince Bishop to let us stay. It was just weird. Of course I left I'm gonna listen to my Bishop over a guy I just met, but it was cute when he looked sad to see me go. Then he sat in front of me that night at devotional. Fun. Later he told me that was the night I diverted his attention from Chantel. I think that is hilarious because I didn't even know him then or her. But now I do and it's just funny!
Then
today was fun. He came to my class again. I wrote my paper and then
went to his place to study. He was going to take a nap but decided he
would rather spend time with me. True sacrifice! Went to his work and
I left for FHE. FHE was swimming and very fun. Then showered and came
to see Rex again! I didn't wear a spot of makeup and he kept
commenting on how good my hair smelt. We talked about battle scars
and stories of getting hurt growing up. We would hold hands or cuddle
it was happy either way. I told him my insecurities of him liking me
and how it was weird that he wasn't going for someone else. When I
asked if I didn't like him back what would he have done he said he
wouldn't of given up. How cute! He told me he was pulled towards me
and that's how I feel about him. Rex is such a catch I don't know how
I got so lucky. Then Rylan and Baylee came always a delight! Had fun
talking and being happy together. Then Rex and I said goodbye. Now I
am home writing this.
One day Rex noticed that I had pink converse and he got all excited. Later I found out that for his brother's wedding he got pink converse! Rex texts me not once, but twice saying, "hey! I am gonna wear my pink shoes today if you wanna match!" Seriously this is just so something Rex would say and I love it! Sweetest, thoughtful-est thing ever! Of course I ran home and changed from my white to pink converse immediately before seminar that day! Rex and I sat by each other both wearing our pink converse and measuring how small mine was to his. We both had huge smiles on our faces and it was just a fun, spontaneous pink converse kind of day :)
FHE he was late from guyz missed me lesson and brought to my
attention of how it could be deter-mentally offensive to someone who
has been taken advantage of. I was happy for his feedback and he made
me realize that I should of added another part into my lesson.
Ate
snickers and cookies. Overheard Rex talking about how he was “working
on it” as the Dayle's teased him about a girl they sensed he liked.
I totally overheard the entire conversation. This was before I made
the reese's bouquet and as I was telling Travis about it. Later I
went to the Mr. EAC dance practice at the church.
Pracitce
was fun we danced and talked outside my door again.
Tuesday
Devotional and dressing up! Yay...not. We sat by each other in the middle and would casually lean into each other while listening to the lesson. Rex brought his notebook to prove that he too could note take. haha. The lesson was on where we were meant to be. And how when deciding on college there are factors that we cannot anticipate like the drawing force that pulled me to EAC. At the time I didn't know why, but I do know now that I am here to have the opportunity to meet Rex. I was wearing my black pencil skirt and blue flowey top. I remember because walking from choir to institute Rex didn't match at all. He was wearing more brown. Anyways we go to eternal relationships and we talk about the Lord's policy on remarriage. In that class I was so against remarriage because to Taylor's mere mortal mind I am selfish and wouldn't want to share a husband if I died, I would want him to remain faithful to me. The other way around if my husband died I wouldn't get married. I would stay true to the committment I made when we were sealed together in the temple. But Rex was over there totally for remarriage saying it's not bad in the eteranl perspective. Rex got to see my stubborn side that day because I am a very opinated person when it comes to some topics and this was one of those topics. Anyways we end of arguing about it beyond the walls of the classroom and after not convincing each other of our sides we just cutely fight. Rex brings up Safe Haven and how that remarriage is what Jo wanted, but that is Robin and I think I know what she would want because we look alike. We ended up deciding to go back to the institute to talk with our teacher about the matter. Rex and Brother Norton opened my eyes that in the eternal perspective it is not bad for a man to have two wives, but for my human mind I just don't fully understand that. But what I did mold and understand is when Brother Norton put Rex and I in retrospec in the situation that we were married and had young children. He then asked me if Rex died would I remarry at first I said no, then Rex said something that really struck out to me he said for the children please...please. I would need time, but eventually remarriage could be an option if I was ever placed in that difficult position. So Rex won are first doctrinal arguement. Then he took me to the institute library to show me his parent's wedding announcement! Cuttest thing ever! I know that that is what Rex wants. What his parent's had. Tuesday was defiantely an eye opener for me.
Wednesday
Wednesday
was my enrichment night and Mr. EAC. Oh boy was I stressed. But it
all worked out. I danced awesome and had too much fun watching Rex be
Rex onstage. I loved the moment when I gave him the reese's bouquet I made for him!
Picture
time with the dance crew!
Baylee's
surprise birthday party then going to Walmart to get ingredients to
cook a newly parented home a meal. I just took over. I was completely unaware that my taking control and cooking impressed Travis
in the process. Alfredo chicken ravioli. Rex kept saying
how good it smelt. Overall amazing night!
Thursday
Seminar was at the thatcher building to accommodate for the blood drive. The lesson was about temples and relating them to our physical bodies. I had an apple
b/c I wanted to donate blood that day. Rex texted me to save him a
seat after I had already sat by my roommates with no more room so
when he got there we both just went to the front row to sit by each
other. Totally not subtle and he had reese's with him. Happy day! I
had braided my hair that day and he liked it! That day our institute lesson was on proper dating at college. A date had to include the three p's: planned, paid for, and paired off. Haha so fun! Thursday was our first
official date!!! I had finished my homework and Rex invited me to go rollerblading Rex legitamitally showed up at my door two seconds
after I texted yes. I was so not ready. Haha he was just so excited.
I took time to put on my socks. He always opens the door for me and I
like that. He helped me put on my skates and then we were off. Having
fun rollerblading and holding hands. Hugging each other cutely for
longer than normal times just having fun. We would go down awesome
little cement hills. It was just a magical night. Then we wanted to
go to Hawaiian Snow but it was closed so then he showed me his drum
set and then we ended up rollerblading to Caboose. Rex got some
weird fruit mixture and japenese candies. I of course got chocolate
with chocolate haha we talked about what foods we liked slash
disliked. Then we ended up talking about thanksgiving and stuff. Rex
insisted that we get our picture taken! How cute! I still want that
picture. Anyways it will always be in the caboose as a symbol of our
first date. We roller blade back to his car to find he had
absentmindedly left his car door open for anyone to come and steal
his car. I am dying laughing and can't contain my humor at his
disbelief of how he could do something like that. His concern for my
phone was cute! Everything was fine! We hugged goodnight and it was
fun!
Friday
One good day. I went thrifting and had a lot of fun. Then made
cookies with Chantel then got all excited to go to the 125th
celebration of EAC. Rex is amazing on the drums and I would just
listen to him play and watch his funny facial expressions. Then
Chantel and I came back to my apt. then went to see the fireworks and
bonfire. Rex had texted me FIREWORKS! He had remembered how much I
said I loved them. I couldn't wait to get to Rex and just spend some
time with him at work. I get there and he has Nacho already to go
from visitng my COMM class and what we learned about the onion made
him think about the nitty gritty. Haha. He got martinelles for us and
was so super sweet of him! We watched a scary yet hilarious vacuum
commerical to celebrate friday the 13th
and he said he wasn't really scared that he just wanted an excuse to
hold me. So we start watching kid history and are all cute and cuddly
when Krissi comes needing to talk to Rex. My appreciation for this
man grew sky high as I got to witness first hand his love,
compassioin, and understanding for sweet Krissi. After she left I
thanked him for being so sweet and instead of just playing the kid
history video Rex turns on All About Us by He Is We. Rex just danced
with me and I loved every second of it. Krissi came back and asked me
to walk her to her car. I was more than willing and walked her to her
car safely. I only had a little bit of time left with Rex and so I
literally ran back to him. I sat on the counter just looking at him
and he comes and swoops me into his arms spinning me around like a
baby. He places me back down and just hug dances with me. I was so in
like with him in this moment it was crazy. We say goodnight and it
was the first time Rex kissed my cheek that night.
Saturday
The parade, sonic, and then...meeting the parents.
Meeting Rex's parents for some random reason made me super nervous. Usually I love to meet the people I date parents, but for Rex it was different. I think it's because of the seriousness and I'm at college now. Meeting parents is like a big step. BIG step. Rex and I just agreed to take it slow, when all the sudden his parents came to town for homecoming halftime show. I get that and I was so happy they support him it was just that I wasn't fully ready. But I'm Taylor and I got over it. I had to make it not be awkward and focus on how truly exciting it was! Rex wanted me to meet his family! Eek! I felt the pressure placed on my shoulders of all the unknown expectations of who his parents have always seen Rex marrying. Not that we are going there, but you have to weight that to understand how when I met them it was like I was meeting that expectation. Luckily his mom is an angel and she was so understanding yet excited to meet me. I liked her right off the back! She doesn't beat around the bush and I like that about her. Rex's dad is a big guy, but I could tell he was a real genuine guy who loved his family. There is nothing more respectable than that. Rex's brother Kevin was super chill and easy to talk to. Plus, he thought I was funny which helps. I thought Kevin was older than Rex, but looking back that was a ridiculous assumption because Rex is just so much more mature. Rex is handsome and sometimes I just have to look at him. He makes me happy. Anyways his family asked about me, my family, and my major. Showing them the video from Wednesday's performance was fun to see them enjoy our hard work felt nice. I like his family and I laugh at myself when I think of how nervous and pacey I was because they were just awesome. No stress.
Magic
show.
Old
jazz group playing music.
Performing
the dance for his family then attempting to play volleyball and
basketball.
Saying
goodbye and him singing, "I'm glad you came." Cute.
Showered
and got ready for the game. Rex was looking dapper in his marching
band tux and I love watching him conduct the band with such passion
and enthusiasm. He truly loves what he does. My nerves where on edge
for half time where the bands would play and rex would bang on drums!
They got a firetruck with all the Mr. and Mrs. EAC candidates and
announced that REX WON HOMECOMING KING!!!!!!!! I was with his family
and we all eekkked with excitement and me and his mom had a special
freak out moment over our happiness for him.
Family
said there congrats and goodbyes. Before we took pictures and his family is just so simply happy it makes me happy to watch them just treat each other good.
Rex
gave me half his chocolate symphony bar. So romantic. Said I deserve
it. So cute! But really Travis deserved some too so I saved him half of my half. Haha.
Then
came annoying Jason blah blah. Then meeting Rex for the dance.
Picture. Then going to his work and talking about Braxton's advise.
Then talking with Rex's mostly sister at his work. We hugged and said
bye Rex also kissed my check that night!
Sunday
I wore my pelleted pink with white polka dot two dollar thrift skirt. Had fun at church with
Rex and we would try to secretly hold hands and touch without others
seeing. Then he invited me to dinner with his married friends! Jordan and Amy's whole relationship started with a jolly rancher and I think that is just so cute! I loved watching Rex cook because he is just so freaking entertaining! So
much fun. Then to home teaching night where he would rest his head on
the back of mine. He was just being goofy. It was cute. He leaves for work.
We go home. I get my homework and I go see Rex. John and Travis were
there working and that was fun. Rex and I would tickle each other and
try to study! Haha Key word try! Rex kissed my cheek that night while
we were snuggling. I went home and was just happy. Rex has that
affect on me.
Homecoming was a fun week filled with Rex, my enrichment night, and our first official date! We have a natural progression going in our relationship and its a comfortable pace. I look forward to future weeks with this amazing guy for some reason happens to like me.
The night before we talked about height and if he would be taller than me in heels. Rex limited me to 3 inch heels. That morning I totally put on my 3 inch nude heels! Rex was taller and looking mighty fine in a tie he borrowed from Travis. Seeing him Sunday and sitting next to him throughout all the church meetings was super cute. Rex is just cute like that, asking me to save him seats and such. Then he
invited me to go sing at the nursing home. Of course I wanted to go because I love to sing and he was going to be there! That was such a fun, neat,
and tender to my heart experience. While singing Rex would subtly rub
my fingers as we harmonized the different hymns to the elderly. We
would stand by each other and Rex would gently place his hand on my
back or waist just loving the touch of one another. It was down
pouring outside and he ran and got the car to help save my hair while Daniel and Bryce covered me with their ties as I ran and jumped in
his car. So much fun! Next came dinner and then the CES broadcast.
Rex wore a leather jacket and it was just very manly! We sat in the
front row code for hey everyone look at me! Rex makes me do things I normally wouldn't and it makes life more fun. I took notes on Russell M. Nelson's talk on, "Youth of the noble birthright...what will you choose?" Nelson focused on stating that in our world today you have to be on one side or the other. No fence sitters allowed. He prompted us to become fully and truly committed to God. Nelson encouraged us to seek education and stop porn, stop it now. I learned a lot from his talk and taking it to heart was easy for me because his topic just underlined things that were already important to me. Rex noticed my note taking skills and the next devotional he brought his own notebook! Haha Afterwards we got refreshments which were mini ice creams. Yum! We just talked again looking through the
preach my gospel for something Rex couldn't find. Rylan was playing
beautiful piano music for my friend Baylee and we went to join them.
Rex secretly held my hand while the boys talked about taking us two
girls on dates. Then he came into the apartment and waited for me to
change into sweats so we could go flubbing! For anyone who doesn't
know what that is don't worry I have been there.Flubbing is a deep dark secret that no one who hasn't flubbed before can know! Rex wouldn't tell me for my entire life. I would ask really sweet and he was like a brick wall...no getting through him. My uncertainties of what flubbing is were so far off from the real thing! Haha I thought it would be embarrassing or awkward. Flubbing was just flubbing! Just good clean goofy mormon fun thing to do. How truly simple it was just made it that much more funny! Chantel and I were dying laughing! So flubbing funny! Then Baylee and I talked about the boys while I would tell super hilarious stories about fake break ups. One time there was this Mexican guy and his laughed killed me. Baylee couldn't even breathe when I would imitate this Mexican's laugh. Now its an inside joke! Yay for inside jokes! Flubbing ended and we practiced Rex's dance before heading home. The ride home Rex held my hand and we talked outside my apartment again. We were just both excited for Wednesday and the week ahead!
We talked about how we both wanted to take things slow. I remember
him taking my hand in his and saying just not in public and squeezing
twice. It was such a relief to me because I am only 18 and I had a plan
to stick out four or more years of college before I would even allow
myself to date anyone. I needed time. Rex was giving me that time.
Then Rex and I went back to his place as I attempted to help him
study. It was a great night we talked and talked. We talked about the
Wednesday where we had no contact whatsoever. I wasn't going to come
to him and I needed a day to think things through. So did Rex and he
confided in me that he called his sister and told her everything. The
the next day he decided to go for it. How happy I am that he made
that decision. I love that Rex and I can really communicate extremely well. Rex and I just understand each other. We are comfortable sharing ourselves, our experiences, and our pasts with each other. We would dance the entire time we talked and it was oh so romantic. I love how tall Rex is and how he makes me feel every time I am around him. Eventually I sent him away so we could both get some sleep, but it felt great to trust each other enough to tell each of our concerns landing us on the same page.
A continuation from our first Saturday together. After learning the dance I leave so that he can go to the temple. And every woman knows that a man who goes to the temple is HOT=humble obedient temple worthy. I went and got ready to go out to eat with my roommates. We went to Casa Manana. Kaitlyn and I got Dr. Pepper and were soooo hyper! The waitress liked me and waived the fee for my dessert saying she told them it was my birthday! I felt like a princess! Free fried ice cream equals one happy Taylor. Then it was pouring rain and my flippy floppy's were hydro-plating as Payge and I ran to get the car. We went to Walmart and I dropped in the toliet paper then ran away. My lil brother at college Bryce came over after and we had all moved our beds into the living room preparing for one big sleepover. Bryces showing up took us girls by surprise and somehow kaitlyn and I got turned around. Long story short I shot my bedroom door completely ignorant to the fact that it was indeed locked. Haha I totally locked myself out of my bedroom. Haha I was having a heart to heart with adam and had to text him back. I am all chill on my bed texting while bryce valon and kaitlyn are all trying to unlock the door. I call my dad to know what to do and he just laughed and said good luck and that he was too far away to even help. So I just casually get up, grab a bobby pin inserting it into the doornob, and I turned it left and opened the door. I am such a boss! It was soooo cool first try and I 1oo% got the job done. I was practically a lock smith and now have official bragging rights to being a pick lock. I was in the middle of my celebration dance when there was a knock on the door. Rex was at the door and he looked even more beautiful than I remember. He comes in and I try telling him the story but he was preoccupied with his own thoughts. Out of nowhere he grabs me up and takes me outside closing the door behind us. The rain came pouring down as he took me in his arms and danced in the rain. Bucket list check! Rex was sooo oh so romantic and I could of lived in that moment forever. It was just so sexy hot. He didn't even ask me he was just taking initiative as a man just getting what he wanted.
That
Saturday he invited me to celebrate payday with Hawaiian snow! We
went on a big walk and ended up talking about my family. Rex is more
visual and took me back to his place to show me some of his family
videos. Can I just say that his family is downright hilarious. Such
funny videos. I just remember sitting there in amazement that this
amazing guy was holding my hands and sharing his life with me. Why me
is all I could think about. Rex just does that to me I guess. He just
makes me feel so comfortable to be around that I forget that he is
kinda a big deal. Totally out of my league in my thoughts but ya
never know. He gave me a private lesson on his Mr. EAC line dance
talent number. I was pretty terrible at first but it was my first
practice come on...give me a break!
Friday was all I looked forward to that week! I was sooo super excited to hang out and be around Rex. We shared a seat belt because Rex was freaking out about safety...super smooth! Listened to music were terrible djs and time flew by. Went to Travis’s house ate awesome food then went to the church. I met Chantel and she is too cute. Everyone had changed clothes and were ready to start the show. Rex looked for me and I was sitting by the girls...I didn't realize he wanted to sit BY me...oops! I told him to just sit by his friends. The concert was amazing! Travis's piano song fireworks was beautiful and his arrangement of my shepherd almost made me cry. When Rex would sing I would just be drawn to him. He has an amazing ability to be super animated and engaged in his singing. Its super cute. After we hugged and he was all like Good Job thanks for coming trying to be funny. Haha. Then we all changed again , but into crappy clothes. We were headed to the cotton seed. Little did I know how much fun that would be. They took us to this HUGE barn and in the back end of it was tons and tons of cotton seed all piled up! The whole activity was climbing up the seed to the top where it was sturdy enough to just walk around and then you would go to the end and drop off. Rex would grab my hand and we'd jump or he would throw me. Whenever his friends Daniel or Rylan would fall over with me he would mark his territory by coming to my side letting the guys know, hey back off dudes. Haha Anyways it was my very first time playing in cotton seed and I love trying new things. Everyone eventually wearied themselves out and we decided to take a seat. Rex was laying down but when it came to story time he made his way to me. Sitting there filthy and covered in cotton was fun but very uncomfortable. Some girl was dying coughing and Daniel is just telling this excruciatingly long story about the choomp. I was just running my hand through the cotton playfully throwing it on Rex's leg when Rex just grabs my hand. I had already decided that it'd be cool if he did but it was no big deal if we didn't ya know because we were still getting to know each other. Holding hands with Rex is fun! Both of us can not for our lives sit still. We have to be constantly moving. We just get into a good rhythm. Daniel ends the story and I think it is hilarious! We jump off one last time and help get the cotton seed off of one another. Then back to the car. We went in search of a water pump to hose ourselves off and a women followed us...it was awkward but oh so funny. On the car ride home we kinda held hands but mostly I just remember falling asleep on his chest as he sang songs beautifully in my ear. Let me remind you that this was only the beginning. What a night to remember, but wait it isn't just mine that night belongs to Rex too. It was our night in the cotton seed.
Tuesday came and with it the dreaded dressing up for devotional, but thankfully Rex was kind enough to remind me like a million times. I have this flowy, pink and orange skirt that I absolutely love. I wore that with my matching red orange top that both my mom and I bought at Forever 21. Throwing on my red orange comfy flats completed my colorful and vibrant outfit. I arrive to devotional excited to see Rex and he never came. They begin and the entire time this guy is talking about how the church gets good deals when people die off all I could focus on why was Rex not there! We sing the closing hymn and then comes in Rex. He look frazzled and like he just woke up. He did! Rex had slept in and that is why he was late! He asked if I saved him a seat and I said yes. I even made Bryce sit behind me so that I could save a spot for Rex that was never filled! Haha Poor Bryce. Rex was happy that I did save him a seat though and we parted ways planning to meet after choir. This time I was supposed to wait so that Rex didn't have to run after me. Adorable! Choir ends and Rex opens the door for me. We go to our institute eternal relationships class and after we go back to my apartment to watch his fall sing video. I loved just sitting on the couch watching Rex in all his different talents. I would laugh at his Disney Hanuka Matata song where he was Pumba! Rex actually pulled off being dressed as a pig...who would of thunk? We would play find Rex and I could always spot he in the crowd of people on the screen. I died laughing and couldn't control myself when I watched Rex play his drums! He just gets so into it with his motions and facial expressions that it cracked me up all the way down to my core. Since Rex slept in and missed my roomies performance of Beautiful to Him, Rex made her give a mini concert at the institute that night. Sitting there listens to everyone around me sing was peaceful, relaxing, and enjoyable. I love music and guys that harmonize! Overall super fun night and that's when Rex asked me to go to Duncan to watch Travis's piano recital. I said yes, I didn't even have to think about it because I knew that I wanted to.
Coming back to Thatcher I had one thing on my mind, seeing Rex. I was so excited to see his face because I thought that his reaction would confirm any uncertainties I had about him not liking me. Sadly he never came to FHE. While I was wondering wear in the world he was his roommate who is a talented pianist asks me to do him a favor. I'm all like I have a relief society meeting, but yea what do you need. He asked the possibly perfect thing of me ever. He asked if I would take Rex dinner to his work. He was working! Haha I love how I work myself up when there is always a reasonable explanation for everything. I learn that someday. Anyways I was more than willing to take Rex some R&R pizza! Valon comes with me because I was scared to go alone, not quite comfortable being just him and me. I walk in the door and Rex's face literally light up. He was not expecting to see me and was more than happy that I came. He was appreciative for the pizza, but quickly asked about my trip to Globe. I informed him it was lovely and that I had a blast. I asked how his lesson went even though twenty people texted me to let me know that Rex had listed his qualities for a future wife...people, people slow down! I had to leave for my meeting, but he was sad to see me go. Later that night he texted me saying that I made his day by coming to visit him and that I didn't need an excuse like food to come for future reference. Dully noted Rex, dully noted.
My roommate Kaitlyn and I went to Globe for the weekend to spend time with my second parents. How I love the Rainwaters...awww too much! Barbara or what I call her Bra Bra is the sweetest woman I have ever known. Her husband Troy and her opened up their home completely to be making me feel ever so welcome. The endless supply of homemade food, ice cream, and theater candy was always there for us girls. There home is beautiful. Water fountain, massive family room, personal gym, and a home movie theater is just a wonderful, wonderful thing! I absolutely loved going back to my hometown to reminisce in the loved ones of my past as well as live in the new friendships of now. As you all know I have met someone and let's just say he is my special friend. There is so much to tell! Let me disclose one detail though, his name is Rex. Rex is tall, dark, and handsome yet so dedicated to his spiritual self along with being extremely confident and funny. Is it kind of pathetic that I highly debated coming to Globe that weekend because there was a football game and Rex was teaching the Sunday school lesson? Well I did, but I knew that I needed to really think things through and if I missed him it would confirm my feelings for him. Checking into the apartment back in Thatcher, Payge informed us of a snake in our apartment! (Insert girl freak out here) Kaitlyn and I immediately think to call Rex to get him there to help Payge. Being caught up in the moment I forgot that he was conducting the band at the game. Rex replied with a text asking what we needed and I told him that we handled it. Then Rex told me he wouldn't of been any help because he is afraid of snakes! Haha, how cute! Kaitlyn and I try to shack off our fear by watching The Lizzie McGuire Movie. We are such girls. May I just tell you of my absolute and utter love for my purple bed. This purple bed is my happy place and I could literally sleep all day long in its comfort. The fact that it is Temper Pedic probably has something to do with that...it is like sleeping on a cloud of happiness. There were two guest bedrooms, but this bed was THAT GOOD that we slept in the same room. Kaitlyn is such a strong and beautiful girl. Spending time with her and bonding in Globe really helped us connect on a deeper level. She is incredible. She is generous. She is flat out hilarious. As Kaitlyn would say herself she is one big BH. I love her and was more than happy to share my life with her. Sunday Barbara and I watched I am mormon videos for hours and somehow got to talking about Rex. I told her how he made me feel and how he is just like Braxton; fun, likable, genuine. Barbara told me to tell Troy and getting both of their approvals to pursue Rex was such a relief as well as comfort to my sanity. This boy literally came into my life so fast and unexpectedly that I don't know what to do with him. He is messing up all my initial plans, but also folding into my future plans. Labor day we headed to the Pinale Mountains where we razored and ate Subway sandwiches enjoying each other's company. I talked and had a heart to heart with both Troy and Barbara. I love them both very much and there kindness means more than any extravagant thing that money can buy. Saying goodbye was bittersweet with roses, Dairy Queen shakes, and a tenderly written thank you card, but I couldn't wait to get back to college and have more fun experiences. Kaitlyn on the ride back informed me that she wants to conceive on the same day as me and I thought that was funny! There are times in ones life where you look back and remember that that was a good day. This weekend was one I will always hold dear to my heart. Thank you to Barbara and Troy for the wonderful people you are to me!
I have always pictured what my future husband would be like. I have made lists of qualities that I would like him to have. I found him. I found a guy who not only is all the things I ever wanted but he is even more. This man in my life exceeds my expectations every day. He is a beautiful man. He is tall, dark, and handsome. He is spiritual. He is selfless. He is kind. He is faithful. He is thoughtful. He is a gentlemen. He opens my car door for me without fail. He is funny. He is giving. He is goofy. He is wonderful. He is athletic. He is a great dancer. He is outgoing. He is willing. He is comforting. He is trustworthy. He is confident. He is strong. He is comfortable with who he is. He is friendly. He is amazing. He is pure. He is an example to me in how to better my own life. He is constant. He is a hard worker. He is sensitive. He is very enthusiastic. He is happy. He is a talented singer. He is silly. He is bent in his ways. He is a reader. He smells good. He is spontaneous. He is a great listener. He is a drummer. He is musical. He is wonderful. He is true. He is more than I could of ever asked for. He is a guy I want to know fully and truly. I want to continue getting to know him. I am willing to put myself into the possibility of where we can take this relationship. I want to put in the effort. I want to hug him all the time. I want to be someone he can turn to when he needs anything. I want to be a constant in his life. I want to be apart of his world. He is a source of happiness in my college experience that I didn't plan on, but am pleasantly surprised to have found. I wake up every morning with a smile on my face because I know that I will get to see him. He is out there. He very well could be my best. He could be the one I end up making my dreams come true with. He has come into my life like a burning fire and I feel his warmth all around me. Hopefully he is here to stay. Hopefully I am to him what he is to me. Hopefully we can continue to pursue the possibility each of us have for the other. Hopefully he is the man of my dreams.
